Saturday, October 24, 2009
Birthday Wish List
No one would know :)
1) A DSLR Camera so that I can take down all the beautiful memories that I have been through
2) A very good Pen which have my name on it so that I can use to sign my name onto the things I will need to sign and hopefully one day this pen can be used to sign something which will affect human kind.
3) Sunglasses with my degree, 425 Degree each side. Hahaha
4) Some money so that my bank can meet the minimum of 500 dollars.
5) Some nice blazar suit that I can use for dinner and also to wear for official use.
6) Nice business shoes of US size 10.5 so that I can wear for work.
7) Everyone around to be safe and sound
8) Whichever god, please bestowed me with the strength so that I can make a difference in this dirty and dark world.
thats all folks.
posted at [7:43 AM]
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Saturday, January 03, 2009
Last Day of 2008
Hmm... Lets see, It has really been a long time since i blog because nowadays blog not popular anymore. All the blogs pages are used by people to sell their clothes or their whatever business. So I lose interest in writing anymore articles but well... what starts must come to an end right so most probably this will be the last article which I will write for the Single Me's Blog. (Hint Hint)
All right, we had finally reached the last day of 2008. Everybody is waiting eagerly countdown like how many hours to the next year. For me, I don't really care because even if the new year comes, life still go on. You got a lot of things to do in life. I mean myself, until I can't really be bothored. You got not enough time, not enough money, not enough freedom as to what you want to do for your own life. So why live? I had been living under control of all the rules and regulations, morals, ethics which explained my behaviour for the past 20 years. But after my 20th birthday, or a few months before that, I found a new purpose. I found the reason why I live. Thats when I met her somewhere in April 2008.
2008 can say is an exciting and eventful year for me. Lets do a brief summary now.
1st I completed all the big projects I have for year 3 and finally I graduated with a Diploma. Not too bad I would say. Diploma you know. Worth something. I should say I had grown a lot, learn a lot, and make a lot during these 3 years of study in Ngee Ann. I had grown, grown to be wiser, smarter and defintetly change for the better in terms of academic wise or physcologically wise. Learn on how hard skills and soft skills that are brought to me. Knowledge which came in handy during my stay with Fuhua NCC and later on Work and Military. Make a lot of ? Love ? :x nope. I make a lot of friends. Good friends. They will hear you out during your troubled times. Help you out when you need. After such a long time, I recieved an email from Diana whose is now a The Phillpine asking how am I and wanting to see i Slim down the pictures. Heart warming isn't it. Thinking back that is one of the best time I had up to the 20 years of my life.
2ndly I went to my dad's company to work. Not bad at all, because its very bad. But I met the her but at that time she think that I am just a young boy. Why is it bad? Because the way the business is managed is really very bad. I did not really learn things there but I applied things. So course i spend 3 years studying came in handy. Put on some weight there too. I think 3 kg i think. Thats damm bad. At least I know what I should do next time when I formally join the company. I know what to do to manage the company better.
Thirdly, I went into National Service. Not army but NS okie. Tekong Kestrel. Moderate Obese Company. More ironic things is, my PC is my poly's buddy's good friend. Thats like ~ hahaha. I think BMT really make change my thinking, perception and mindset. I grown up a lot from there. I know how important is it to have family support. Especially field camp, when you feel like giving up, you thinking of your mother's favourite dish waiting for you at home, when you are feeling damm cold at night and sleeping in mud, you will feel that home is the best. Nothing beats coming home. And booking out, see my girl-friend, saw her with another man, kill the man F my girl-friend, with my rifle and buddy and me ~ Sick ? No thats our army song. We sing that during all the ET Run/Jog/Walk and route marches. Is this song which makes us forget our pain and tireness for the few moments. Then I have someone, who gave me additional support. Though she never say anything, but I felt it. Maybe is one-sided but all the talking on the phone and words of encouragement really help. Yea, so better treasure the peacetime if not you will really lose everything.
Forthly, I have gotten my Mrs officially on 28-09-2008. Nice number leh. She is a sweet lady, innocent, cute, natural. I like her giggling and her groan. She groan like a door sometimes when she Sa Jiao and I think is fine. Althought both of us have challanges ahead of us but we had promised each other that we will work hard and held each other's hand tight when things happen. Her nick is Xiao Bai Zhu and mine is Da Hei Zhu. Don't know why we started it but because she is whiter and we both like pig. She sleeps like one i eat like one and I am dark you know after all the sun tanning in tekong. So yea, Xiao Bai Zhu I love you more than I can say.
Fifthly, FPC, went through a 6 weeks course at sembawang air base. Known more new friends which we suffered together during hardship. Like we built emplacement with 1000 over and bags. Like 1800 like that. Carry it upslope down slop all that. Food there not bad I would say. Then everytime I book out or got time i would call my Mrs lor. Thats where our relationship gets stronger cos we get to see each other once every week.
Sixly i got posted to Paya Lebar Air Base. Xiongest FDS. OJT half of us on status. Mine was worst. I got Attend B 4 weeks, Upper Limb, Lower Limb, Heavy Load, RMJ, Prolonged Standing excused. I got Plantar Fiacitis already but I endure. But then after that injured my left shoulder during one of the turnout and that starts everything. So I get to see the Specialist all that. So now everytime I run i will feel the pain on my leg especially the heel part. Thats due to dunno when the training too xiong then I start having it but I know I have it during one of the NCC training.
And now counting down to new year, at the very last minute, my Mrs was at my arms. We were watching the fireworks at marina together. Quite romantic isn't it. We watched once together during NDP but she is not mine that time. (Hint) And we strongly believed that we will work hard together for our futhur. Thats written in our resolution and I don't know where it went to after we mail it out. hahaha.
Hope that 2009 will be a smoother year for everybody and us especially the economy. Bad times now. Growth rate only 1.5% for 2008. usually is 4 -5 %. Me and Xiao Bai Zhu, our love will become stronger day by day, weeks by weeks, month by month, year by year, decade by decade ... Everybody Healthly strong and fit. Don't eat too much during CNY. Especially the orange juices.
Happy New Year and farewell to www.droppingdead.blogspot.com
posted at [9:22 AM]
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Saturday, October 06, 2007
My airport story.
Well Blogger, this time round I don't know who am I talking to . Maybe you are the one whom I can say everything to. Over this past few months, I have seen many things. Maybe because I am working in Airport.
I have an Airport story to tell. In airport is the place where you will see the happiness when families reunite, you will see love when the loved one meet each other. Also you will see despair when someone whom who is closest to your heart leave you for good. You will see people unwillingly part each other. Thats airport. It is fill with emotions. It has feeling.
I felt all the emotions that all the humans have encountered in the airport. I feel lost on the first day of work just like any other passenger. I seen many unfamiliar faces like how passenger seeing the airport for the first time.
I have enjoyed warmth just like when people met after a few years. That friendship and caring make me felt it.
I enjoyed the time spent there. It make me grow.
I felt important just like how the plane soar in to the sky
I feel young just like how the children will run about and felt amazed by everything.
I seen love just by communicating through a phone just like how people communicate to each other via that glass.
I also seen sadness just like when people have to part.
I have that heartbroken feeling just like giving up finding the person you had been looking for and that person is leaving you for good.
I have encounter : Happiness, Rage, Sadness, Laughter.
The details will remian on my memories and it will be part of my memories.
To the special her: Airport is also the place where I told her how I felt after 4 years. The 4 years of waiting, dreaming and giving- in have come to the end. Perhaps I am not the prince you are waiting for. Because I don't believe in fairy tales. There is no happily ever after. I don't believe in Cindrella story. I wanted to cry just like how you tell me to so that I will feel better. No, I will not. Althought the heart is really painful. Without crying or thinking there is a very painful feeling in my heart. Its like the heart broke into many pieces. I have finally taste it myself. Perhaps thats human emotion. Love does not means possession. I not need to be with you to love you. I will let you go because I love you. I will have you only because I like you. Thats the difference. I will let you go like how I let the previous her go. If you are happy I will be happy. At this very moment I can understand why people will do something which is harmful to the body like smoking or drinking or even sucide. I have the urge to run on the street endlessly, I have the urge to drink till I get drunk so that I will forget everything. Wo Ai Ni,Hao Ai Ni, Dui Bu Qi Xie Xie.
Crying without tears.
posted at [10:21 AM]
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Personality test
Well, recently I just play with the new personaility test in a supermarket dairy fridge. The test goes like this: If you can choose any drinks in here free, what will you take.
It doesn't matter what you choose, it matters how you choose it. For me I can't settle down on what drinks i want. I can drink all drinks. This applies to how you cope in relationship in real life too. I cannot' settle down on what I want. All seems good to me and all seems nice to drink like the drinks. The packaging may not be nice, but it taste good or the packaging is nice and taste good but not as healthy or beneficial to human. Its the same thing. I don't know who I want. In my life there are many girls which come across me. They are good and I think our charater match but somehow I just ponder around and explore around. That explain why am i not attach now.
Everytime my grandma come to Singapore, she will ask whether i have girlfriend a not. Everytime my mind will skip a bit. And answer: don't have. No people wants me. But this time round she make it worst by adding this. How come don't have, your cousin also have already. So poor thing. Well maybe no one wants me really.
I just don't know what i want. Everything seems good. When I finally decide on what i want its already too late. Is either the person is attached or the person don't like me. So the more this kind of things happen, the more I scared to get in love. Well Love is beautiful and I know. Is not that I have high standard or what. But those girls who attract me and make me keep thinking of them are always high in demand.
Now I know what and who I want. But so how ? First we are of different class. Second, she got many suitable. 3rd she is friendly to all, 4th she has someone whom she like. I don't like this kind of feeling. It like you finally choose a drink and when you are about to drink it, the drink spilled over on the floor.
Everday, everynight I am missing you. I will treasure it. I will bring it wherever I go. Well adult relationship and teenage relationship is so different. For teenage relationship, you will dream of dating with your dream girl or dream guy. But for adults, what really matter is whether you all have common interest and whether when you all are married, you all will have the happiness a not.
You boyfriend or girlfriend will be someone ordinary. It isn't the prettiest girl on the world, but to you they are the prettiest. Realationship in the adult stage is also very materialistic. When girl gauge a guy, they will judge whether is he able to support the family a not. Is the guy able to provide her with the sense of security.
Well afterall its just complicated. Tell me what to do. Show me whats my future and don't torture me with guessing game. I have weak heart, I cannot play this kind of game. What I need is companion, what i need is mental support, what i need is just someone to talk to. What I need is someone whom can share my joy and woes with me. I no need a very pretty girl. I no need a very gentle and elgance lady. All I ask for is the chemistry. Althought my dream girl have to be someone who is gentle or elegance, but all these is not important at all. Love is blind.
I will treasure it like a treausure.
posted at [10:08 AM]
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NCC DAY Parade 2007
If you are bored by constant blogging about NCC, I am so sorry but you have to bear with me. Because NCC is part of my Life . It something which I feel so proud of myself. Its somewhere I found pride, fun, sense of belonging, friends and an area to display and be myself.
Last Year I once make a promise that I will work hard to ensure that my Unit keep is not complacent about our results and will continue to work hard. The Outcome of the BUC is the reason for me to stay on and strive harder to get the best. This year, we finally get the overall best. So this goes to show that my effort do pay off. Of course to the cadets and officers. They work hard too. So my sincere words to my dear clts who work hand in hand with me, Chee Meng you are not forgotten, Adrian , Perry , Kar How, Snr Chee Kaur , Snr Steven, Snr Zhi Yong, Snr Wee Hock, Snr Elvis, Snr Luis , Snr Hadi. Your efforts have finally paid off in the presence of me and on my hand. But without the pioneer setting up laying down the foundation, Fuhua won't be like this today.
So today is NCC day parade. I shall skip some details and go into some worth mention parts. Afternoon the sky is dark and the wind is big. While doing the slow march my flag is flying. And is really big sia. Then we really is praying the sky won't rain. Cos droplets of water have been dripping. But the sky is especailly kind to us. Thank you whatever god for clearing the sky. Today slow march is okie. Hopefully I did well... Mr Chia keep going up and take award take until hand numb. Go on stage 4 times. Take uber many plague and trophy.
Post parade still need to go up stage and take all the certs and Gold unit plauge.
I think is really an achievement for me and the school. We are able to get such and achievement is not by cheating... You must really see how hard we work. The boys, the CLTS and the Officers. It not like you just open your mouth talk we will be the best scold cadets they become good boy then you will be best unit. So for those people who is doubting our school unit, please feel free to come down our training and visit. But of course you must attain approval first. Everyone in Fuhua NCC is an assets and we treasure them. We really is put in our hard work and we deserve more than anyone else.
A lot of people congratulate me. But the person I wish most to share the joy with me did not. Well what to do. So I don't feel a full fletch of honor and joy.... But the feeling is there... Hahah...
Happy NCC DAy people ! :)
posted at [7:31 AM]
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Donate Blood
So i finally donated blood. Due to some objections by the religious thing. I were told that my blood is royal and should not donate and pass to other people. But who cares. Maybe I might save for rainy days. Touch wood. :X
So hows the experience of donating blood. At first i was all right. Pok asked me whether i want to donate blood a not. I without hesitating and i agreed. When i reach the conventition center, I was told that I have to test my veins first to see whether it is suitable anot because I am a first timer. The red cross or nursing people started to play with my hands because there is no nurse free to attend to me. So what I did was to let them feel my veins. Then when the nurse came she found the other vein and everyone started touching it as thought I am the guinea pig.
After that we have to grow through stages at stations to clear. Doctor check, iron test where they staple my finger. Then was the final one.
I sit there quite long again before the nurse attend to me . Then after that the needle goes in. Its just a bit painful(needle pierce your skin of cos pain) Then after that there is no more feeling already. So once its conacted I can see the bag of blood filled with my blood. Its quite cool actually. Then the worst part is here. When you arm is so numb because it don't have blood, the nurse call you to keep squeeze the stress ball. Then its super sour sia. But have to keep squeezing. So once done I am suppose to sit there and wait for the blood to stop flowing.
Then wear i finally stood up. Its like wow. The world is spinning. My right arm is weak now. And i realize i should have given them my left arm to draw the blood. Hopefully sunday I don't drop the NCC colour. Then i was given milo to drink. Free flow:x But okie lar I only take 1 milo and 1 fruit juice to replenish my iron and minerals.
Hmm... I am feeling the way i am feeling 3 years ago. Poor me. Don't tell me I have to spend the rest of my life alone. Tsk Tsk
posted at [10:52 AM]
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Spec Course Phase 2
Hmm... After Spec course I think i am suffering from post spec course chesspie fuktup depression. Its the phase 2 which is the one which I have this feeling. From this spec course, we can actually see a lot of people real potential and attitude. We can see a person real potential and we can see a fuktup CLT. Take for example, you have see before a bloody person trying to orders from the 2IC when he is way below the hiearchy.
Then CLT all slacking when is like the 2ic cum acting OIC is doing all the work. By right the OIC suppose to stay inside the ops room and give out orders all that only. But this time round i seems to be running about more than the OCs. Well I only know that this course let me see a lot of person true potential and their flaws. Some of their flaws are unforgiven. If you think that post is too lowly for you then you seriously should not be a CLT. Even we start off as a Sai Kang Warrior.
Then going for this course make me ponder a lot of things. Whenever i got free time i will think of that thing. So until now the tug of war still there is no winner. But it seems like both party of tug of war have already tone down already. But I don't know lar.
Why can't it be more simple...
posted at [5:36 AM]
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